Confusion

well,
first blog. yay!

not really.. I just wanna write. =P

anyways.

Life.

Mine.

I'm stuck between 3 girls.
What to do? lol

one is my ex, betty- who wants me back.
I moved on, [cuz after all I dumped her]
But still, I'm not gonna lie, I do still miss her. It's just a thing I had to do, I mean come on- once a cheater, always a cheater.

girl#2 : Ashley.
I hooked up with her on Friday.
Just a hook up, one night stand, w/e you wanna call it.

girl#3: Megan.
Funny story,
It all started today [during 5th period]. And I was just there in my chair, she was in her desk- I was just there, checking her out [she's gorgeous] we've known each other from band, well she's in colorguard- but w/e. Anyways, well she looks at me- and tells me if I'd wanted to help her out during lunch with the colorguard equipment [in the band room] which I was like sure.

So we talked like normal and whatever. The bell rings for lunch, we both go into the band. Knowing she's one of the colorguard captains, she gets access to the equipment room. So the room is deserted but only me and her, I help her put all the flags away for like 5 minutes, and then. She tells me to drop the flags, next thing you know she's coming onto me. And you know, at first I was like, all wondering why- but then I just let her. Heck, I didn't mind. It was just an overrated make out session. It was all good.

So then the bell rang, we moved on, and that was just it.

The thing is- I don't want to go to school knowing all 3 are gonna be after me.

*sigh*

These 3 girls are gorgeous and all have something that I like.
I wouldn't mind being with them, but one at a time pls!

Now,

another problem.

For once and for all, I would like to come out pls. I'm bi- just currently messing with girls.

No one knows,
well ppl suspect. But I don't tell them anything.

Now, no matter how physical things may get between us and these girls. Yeah, we don't show anything in public.
The thing is,
Betty always wanted to announce our relationship but I was like "No".

I'm not ashamed of who I am.
I'm just scared to face a gaybasher if I ever meet one. And plus if ppl know, here we have some guys that can't control their hormones, and I don't want them making comments and stuff. And my parents hate homos, and you know.

grrr.

However there is one person that knows [more like 2]

One is my best friend.
I didn't have to tell, she just reads me like a book.

She teases me alot though,
I don't mind- I'm know she's just playing around though. One thing she always asks me, how do I get these gorgeous girls that are known to be with the hottest guys at school-

funny thing,
we all have secrets?

The other person is...
My current Band teacher.
Betty told him while she was having some problems and yeah..... then my band teacher started stalking me and asking me, and I staright out told him yes, I'm bi and I'm going on with the drum major [betty].

*sigh*